As I reflect upon the past week or so, I realize that I am most thankful for the shift in perspective I’ve experienced (moving from profoundly frustrated to a place of acceptance and redirection) over a situation that is largely out of my control.
Actually, it’s been a good reminder that I can only control my own thoughts, feelings, and reactions (and even then it is difficult!), and the more I focus on the things in my life that I can change, I generally will feel better overall.
Without going into details, I have been methodically pursuing a certification, and am (theoretically) nearing the end of my work. I still have a ways to go in one or two areas, but the proverbial finish line is in sight.
However, in order for me to complete the requirements, I must rely on one or two other people (in charge of the program) to make progress. For reasons not fully known to me, these individuals are not available/responsive, and this ongoing phenomenon has dragged out the process needlessly.
However, the light bulb in my mind switched on last week. After months (perhaps a year or more?) of trying to figure out how to make things work, I finally had to accept the inevitable: things were unlikely to change (so long as I continued waiting on others).
Perhaps you are wondering what I did next. I’m glad you asked!
Well, I applied to another, similar program in the area to see if I can transfer to a different training organization. There may be some additional cost involved, but I’d rather be somewhere where I am being thoughtfully shepherded through a process, rather than effectively being abandoned in the midst of it!
Sometimes, I think the Lord waits for us to realize that something isn’t working before He prepares to move us someplace where things are moving. 💡
I also had to accept the following:
▪️ There is no guarantee that my transfer request will be accepted. However, as I believe that the Lord has called me to this certification program, I believe He’ll make a way.
▪️ If, for some reason, He desires to keep me in my current program, then there is a lesson I need to learn about patience (that is, I’ll get my certification, but it will take longer).
▪️ I’ve had to recognize that I’ve hit “certification fatigue” and need to redirect my energy elsewhere for a season. I’ll still make steady progress each week, but I know that I need to focus on practicing better self-care, so I decided to explore something else that challenges me in a different, but related, way.
At the end of the day, I’ll get through it, because — as Philippians 4:13 says — I can do “all things” (even a lengthy certification process!) through Christ who strengthens me. For this and so many other things, I am most grateful.